When I was younger, I always wanted kids that were very close in age. Preferably less than 2 years apart. When our baby girl was born, I wanted to try for a second one after a few months. Directly after the birth, I thought (just like many other mothers) that one kid was enough as the labor was intense and very different than expected (read more here). But, after a few months, my opinion changed and we were trying for a second.
After two months I was pregnant again. Unfortunately, this became a miscarriage (read more about that here). Sadly, it didn’t stop at 1 miscarriage. By now I have a bunch of positive pregnancy tests in my bathroom cabinet. I somehow don’t want to throw these away.
As each miscarriage was a big setback for me and I am still treated for depression, I decided to stop testing each cycle. I thought that if I just don’t test, I was never pregnant and just had a longer cycle. This was already quite long and irregular so that wasn’t that strange for me. This way I saved myself from the pain of each miscarriage. I understand that this is not for all women but by focussing on my business (greenandhappymom.com & greenandhappyshop.com), I could stop thinking about it as this distracted me enough.
After about a year and a half, I went to my physician because of the mulitple miscarriages. She send me to the hospital to get checked by a gynecologist. Luckily I didn’t have to wait very long to see someone who was specialized in fertility. She told me multiple miscarriages can have several causes but it is also possible that they don’t find anything. In this case, having multiple miscarriages is just bad luck.
The gynecologist wanted to do several blood tests and check if the shape of my uterus might be different. A differently shaped uterus can cause breech position of the baby and a stuck placenta (read here more about both during my labor). This did not seem to be a problem. For the blood tests, I a to wait a few weeks as I recently miscarried again (tested after 7 weeks), to make sure my hormonal levels are back to normal. The genetic tests, which my boyfriend and I had to take together, could take up to 10 weeks. When we finally could do the blood tests, it appeared that we did not receive the right papers for the tests. The hospital was just declared bankrupt so all the doctors were no longer available. Now I had to make a decision, go to a different hospital or wait until a different hospital takes over. I choose the latter to not put so much pressure on myself.
Unfortunately, this took longer than expected. The first appointment with the previouse gynaecologist was in January. The first appointment with the new gynecologist was in early May. By now I just found out that it was almost 8 weeks ago that I had my last period (but I didn’t dare test). The day of the appointment I got my period. I suspected and other miscarriage.
The new gynecologist was very thoughtful. She immediately wanted to do several tests as she suspected that I might have an ectopic pregnancy after the brief exam she did. I had to come back the next day. The tests showed that I had not been pregnant but just had a very long cycle this time. As this could indicate that there no ovulation taking place, the gynecologist wanted to do even more tests. I also received the right papers to do genetic tests. By now I had my blood taken 3 times this week resulting in 9 tubes. Not much fun but hopefully it gives us some useful information.
Read here about the follow-up.